| Many more blessings...I just want everything to be better. |
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| I'm a little psyched out right now. I just hope that things are going to slow down. But the more I look around the more I realize that I'm moving into a future at a fast pace and there is nothing slowing down this rollercoaster called life. I do need to a take a chill pill though and defintly need to just relax. Here's to the dog days of summer..that are actually turning out better than the hot ass month of July up here in the NYC. |
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| This is defintly a crazy layout. But I thought what the heck? I need somthing diffrent. It also reminds me of my childhood. I used to really love anything that was rainbow colored and stuff. I realize though that I'm no longer a child. I've always been aware of my maturity even though some people think that I'm not. I just like to have fun like I'm a kid cause I don't feel like I had the chance to really enjoy it as much as I could have. I had to face things at a young age and I don't think that it was right that I had to have my innocence stolen away from me like that. I could have at least gotten an extra year.
But whatever the past is the past and what is happening now is what is happening now. It just feels like it's all happening too quick. That I don't have engouh time, energy-whatever to keep up with it all. I don't know how college is going to be. I mean I'm already there and I'm in this program for the summer but its like when September beings alot of things are going to happen and then it's going to be the real start of my college life. This right now is like a preview. It's not fully developed and I'll admit it. I'm sort of scared. It's like all of my life I've been waiting for this . Literally I used to think this all the time since like 5th grade at least. It was always "oh wait unitl junior high it will get better", "oh wait until high school it will get better" and then it was "college will be better". Now I'm here at college and I'm wondering..is this it? It can't possibly be it. I know that I have to keep reminding myself that it takes time but I just want to make sure that I'm doing everything right. I just don't want to screw anything up.
This is my last chance.... |
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| Whaaaatup? Nothing much to say. Just basically trying to beat the heat. Today has been a scortcher. I have been taking my summer classes at NYU and it's going okay. It could be better at times, but this week is starting to look up. Tommorow I'm going to the Ipod store with my boyfriend, his boy and I'm inviting my friend from NYU. That should be intresting  and on Thursday hopefully me and this girl from NYU can get our whole Gallatin crew together to go to Coney Island after classes. That should be fun. And then...I'ma see Cinder on Wed and..then! suprise! suprise Downery Park with Em & Bri. Hopefully  so keep your me in your prayers so all of my plans work out. I don't need any problems this week. Until next time! |
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| So it is finally over! Thank the lord. It's so crazy thinking about yester-year and how much things have changed in four years. I know that ya'll don't want me to get all Reverend Colucci on you but I have to say that I have truely grown in the past four years and learned alot about myself and how I deal with situations & people. Somtimes it hasn't been all good but I know that it has always been for the best. You can quote me as saying that. LOL What is truely crazy is how I got into NYU. I still can't believe that one. I guess that God finally is rewarding me for all the hard work I put into school and basically just into being a good person. Plus I found someone who I can truely say is there for me and who I love with all my heart. I would do anything for you cause baby I know you would do anything for me and thats real. 05.04.06 To all of thouse out there that have lost hope all I can say is keep trying. I truely have seen alot of things happen from my father's death to losing friends and finding yourself standing at the edge of that cliff ready to take the leap and fall. Don't do it. Stay true to yourself and fuck the haters #@$%! |
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